When people in our Wuhan Family starts moving out...

Most of the students moved to other Universities to start their major, but they can still be found everywhere in HuaShi coz 1) The year 1 locals are still undergoing the military training thus lessons haven't started for them yet. 2) They find it hard to move to other universities coz 'HuaShi' is where they 'grew up' from.

We decided to visit Jackim at his school, we've been calling that school the 'countryside' coz it is in some ulu part of Wuhan and you can even see the trains passing by from the school. The school is fking hugeeeee it takes about an hour to walk from the international student dorms to the nearest school gate. It's either you buy a bike or bicycle there or you spend 2 hours walking just to and fro the school gate. Luckily we took a cab in that day, it was 5rmb difference from the gate to the dorms. Like seriously!!!
That's his room. It's pretty sweet. They have a private secluded balcony and free fridge! Except that it's a squatter toilet and there's no TV.. And his no life neighbour knocks on every door along the hallway to make us shut up.
Joycee and Jackim, one sweet and funny couple.
Who says you can never go full retard?

Anyway, Joycee has been my part-time roomie since I came back. It's either she sleeps over at mine, or Shanti and I go crash at her double-double bed.

Yeah, Joycee made me jump on her bed every morning I woke up while Shanti's washing up. Coz they say: it's either you cut down on food, or start exercising. So yeah, I enjoy jumping on her bed. It's springgggyyyyyy~ I'd prolly break my legs if I were to do that on my own bed. LOL

Ok, laters~ Dinner time! Shanti's cooking todayyyyyyyyyyyyyy ^^

秋天的风

整天飞来飞去的，有时候会忘了自己在哪里。不知道是自己的适应能力太强还是已经从习惯到麻木了。

到了武汉后，每天都吃和喝就是找朋友聊天或者睡觉，简直就像一头猪。今天起得特别早，因为早上5点半就接到 Lisa Baby 的电话说人在华师要过来，所以没办法继续睡觉。到武商买些日用品，回来后马上倒在床上睡觉，一直到晚上8点接到Francis的电话邀我一起吃晚餐。他们刚打完球，今天是华师留学生女篮的Selection Day，原本是要去的但是睡迟了。

吃晚餐时感到有点不好意思，因为大家都要我参加女篮。但是我的脚。。。 冠军赛就在这个11月份，我们每年都夺得冠军，我怎么可能！！还好大家都对我特别宽容，至少他们训练时我都会在。嘿嘿

晚餐后，坐在宿舍楼下聊天，阵阵强烈的秋风吹到武汉了。Jackim现在就读农业大学，在武汉的乡下，聊天时他说: Yesterday night, alot of birds flew towards my school direction. My neighbours all say this is no good bcoz the cold weather gonna hit us soon.

这天气最适合穿着Fbt和T-shirt散步到老干妈。去年尝试过，但是自己一个人，实在忍受不了别人怪异的眼光。华师现在有大约100名新加坡学生，FMS, Engineering, CHS... 刚看见2位我猜是Engineering的女生坐在1楼边吃Mac边享受秋风，看见一群FMS的学生穿着FMS Tshit 浩浩荡荡地走进宿舍楼，看见1位CHS学妹下楼投诉头洗到一半就没水了就上楼。

这么多组的新加坡人经过，没有人对谁打招呼，只和自己的朋友聊天。他们问我：how come Singaporeans don't talk to each other? Liwen, you are so full of shit, I'm sure you can be friends with them.

我也不知道，就说: you dont understand our culture.

他们回复： well, but at least we know that if we see any Chinese looking person helping others to open the door or giving way to others, they must be Singaporean. Not a zhongguoren.

对，我们Civilised.

我真的需要减肥！！！回到武汉=大吃大喝，连他们都无法忍受了。
昨天在5号宿舍楼chill out时，我说要回家收一下衣服，他们回了一句: yar sure, put on your shoes when you come back, let's hit the bball court. Jackim gonna come play ball, we go run after.

就这样，我和Shanti就坐在球场看他们打球 ...
从天亮打到天黑。
然后再到体育场。他们终于这是才明白为什么我这次会拒绝参加女篮队。
从来没在跑到上散步过，昨天应该是第一次吧。希望我很快就能再跑步运动~

明天是中秋节~去年的中秋节我在桂林，和Louise联手“逼”Ryan Jimond Kenneth 和我们一起吃月饼~

中秋节快乐！

And so I'm in Wuhan.

This is the awesomest sandwich I had within this short period of time..

Hello all~ thanks for all the texts and messages. I'm in Wuhan now, safe and sound. Haha. And bigggggggggggggggg thank you for ah bel and chengyao who woke up early morning to give me a surprise but didn't make it, coz I already went into the departure gate.. Ahhhh really appreciate it!!!

Everything was going very smoothly until I hopped onto the cab. I got stucked in the traffic jam and the cabbie took me all over Wuhan to see if there's any road that wasn't that 'jammed'. The whole Wuhan road was jammed due to some accident, and it took me more than 2hours to reach my dorms and the cab fare costed fking 250rmb.

I came into my room and found out that there were mould everywhere on my furnitures and shoes and toilet bowl!

Apparently, Shanti and Joycee had been standing at the old dorms peeping into my room. The moment they saw the lights on, they knew that I was back and came knocking on my door to surprise me with Shanti's super delicious macaroni with cheese. The moment they entered my room, they were like: my gosh liwen, did u take a dump before you left and forgot to flush?

Yeah, that's how bad my room smelt. FKING MOULD! I can't even sleep in my room on the day I arrived.

Grammys and VOX were sooooo empty when we got there. Everyone left, I guess the crowd would come back when time pass by and more people meets more friends.. Anyway, crashed in Joycee's school and her room is fking awesome. With 2 double beds combined together in a single room!

Lisa baby got robbed while going back to ligong from huashi. The fking chinese guys who robbed her even cut her wrist that almost got to her main vein.

And it's good that huashi banned some students from coming into our dorms for visiting.

Ahhh, ok, Mac time. Life of a bum whoo!!!

我又要飞了！

明天飞武汉了~

感觉。。。哈哈，不知道。
武汉对我来说一直都是一个既熟悉又陌生的地方
每一条街都很熟悉，但是每次重复经过那些街道通常都是和不同的人
每次都是抱着很陌生的心情到那个熟悉的地方

尤其是这一次，新的学年开始了，不知道新来的同学们都是什么样的人

啊~ 还是乐观点！
希望一切真的会很顺利。让我遇到更多好人吧！

祝我好运~

再见！

What a cute couple!

Lately, I've been watching "The Bachelorette" Season 6 and I'm still halfway to the last episode. I really wanted to kill myself when I got to find out about the results online, wah lau, spoiler!!!

I'm not sure about you, but the weird thing about me is whenever I'm watching shows like this when they have to make people fight and compete on something, I'd scan through all of them and tell myself "this dude gonna win".

You know I was so annoyed to see the boys backstabbing one another and warn the girl about this guy and blah and then they would act like stupes to try to impress the girl. And then Roberto caught my attention coz he's really fking charming especially when he smiles! And he's sweet, he's awesome! But I didn't expect him to really stand out in the end, coz he was being all quiet and low profile.

And his first one-to-one date with Ali was super romantic can! First kiss on the zipline! He was scared like hell but was still trying to comfort Ali and stuff. HAHAHAH.

Meanwhile I'm still stucked in all the killings and self-killings among the boys in the show, have yet to see this part yet. But YAY!!! ROBERTO!!!
Roberto is such a hottie, and Ali is so cute tooooooooo!

I'd say, perfect couple. Too perfect!

人

我乘上了巴士。
巴士里有几位中学生还有几位刚上巴刹买完菜的婆婆。
一路上婆婆们都七嘴八舌地说话。
到了巴士转换站当司机煞车时，我听见有东西掉落在地上的声音。
大家下了巴士，我走向巴士后门时看见婆婆正在努力地捡起掉在地上的苹果。
我蹲下帮忙捡起苹果。
有两位中学生刚好走到后门要下巴士。
我看了他们一眼，他们还了我两眼。
我继续捡苹果，婆婆把袋子打开让我把苹果放回去。
他们还站在那里。我又看了他们一眼。
男生小声说：婆婆，我帮你拿下车啦。
现在的人做什么都那么慎重考虑，连帮个小忙也不例外。
这是因为帮人是件很丢脸的事，还是你害怕会帮错人？
还有，之前一直和婆婆聊天的另外那些婆婆又去了哪儿呢？
司机先生，如果我去投诉你的话你会怎么辩护自己？
你会承认是自己的疏忽 ，
还是说是婆婆自己把苹果掉在地上？
或者你会骂我，说这只是一件小事，没有造成太大的破坏，干嘛大惊小怪？

这不仅仅是一个关于苹果掉落在地上的故事。

2010年9月11、12日 - 武汉2周年

好快~ 转眼间2年就这样过去了。短短的4个月半的朝夕相处竟然让我们找到了 Ah Bel 所说的 “比石头还坚固的友谊”。谢谢各位，一路上都有你们陪我一起走过。

首先要谢谢 Ah Bel 亲手制作的爱心卡片。我很感动~ 你每次都很有心，动手制作卡片给我~ :'D



虽然2年的时间过去了，我们的外表，思想，等方面都有些改变，但是我们共有的 Ki Siao-ness 是怎么甩也甩不掉的！^^










2008年的我，现在肯定正在和另外几位中文系的武汉战友们一起聚在一起聊天，对未来4个月半的旅程感到无比的兴奋以及抱有满怀的期望。那时的我们，当时的我是非常开心的。

2009年的我还不认识 Ryan 和 Jimond，现在应该被困在北楼和我的越南同屋秋怀一起看电视，或者是在msn和Kenneth聊天。当时的我对武汉感到有些失望，但我认为是自己还不适应，并对接下来的日子充满了期望。

2010年的我，现在竟然还在新加坡。现在的心情是：害怕。但是我的乐观是怎么也灭不掉的，我希望这次到了武汉，一切会更好，更精彩！我坚信“明天会更好”，我有信心我们每天都会在欢笑和欢乐中度过！:))

Jazmine Sullivan - Bust Your Windows

The image of your laptop and stereo system being smashed into a million pieces onto the floor, with you squatting down covering your balded head with your dirty hands, still cracks me up.

It's now about the world of equality. An eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth.

Last weekend in Singapore.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
It's good, no not good.. I meant Awesome, wonderful, wohoo~ to have them with me. I hope it will be another awesome year with awesome and fun loving people. :)

只在乎曾经拥有

SHIT! I realized that I did not take any picture on my 21st Birthday!!! =/
It wasn't like any other very 风光 kind of 21st bday parties, instead, it was a quiet one.
It was the only day that my fagtards treated me nice in a different way.

Few hours before my 21st, I was in Beilou enjoying some quality time with my Vietnamese roomie and admiring the snow, when my classmate QQ-ed me and told me that the teacher decided to reduce the deadline for our 60% weightage assignment to the 11th instead of the 20th. At 00:00hr. Yes, our teachers can really come up with any shit. Luckily it wasn't an essay kind of assignment, it was just something like a lesson plan for my class.

All the while I've been using Ryan's or Mia's textbooks to plan for my lessons, coz I was teaching their level. But the both of them were busy dating at that point of time, and as I was about to jump off my balcony due to too much pressure, Jimond called. He was on his way home from work, and tada~ my saviour. I ran to their apartment with my laptop and I've never hated snow that much. It was so slippery that I slipped every 100m I ran.

I reached their apartment, Jimond threw me his textbook and went upstairs and I carried on working on my lesson plan in their living room. Ryan came back, muttered a "wassup faggot" and went into his room.

I don't know how I did it, but I managed to complete my assignment 10minutes before the deadline. I was so fking drained out that I didn't even cut the lights off, I was too tired to move my butt! I just knocked out right on the couch. The next moment, someone dragged me up and blind-folded me from the back and said: who works their ass off on their 21st birthday? It was Ryan's voice. He "unblinded" me and said: Happy Birthday, by the way, you are still a retard, just for your info.
Then, I recognized Jimond's gorilla footsteps stomping down the steps, as he shouted: Happy Birthday fag! Next, he picked me up and spinned me 21 times. And we crashed right after.

Ryan woke me up in the morning, waited for me to wash up and stuff, and fetched me to school on his bike. (Usually he'd just leave by himself and let Jimond and I carry on sleeping until either of us wakes up and then I would go and kick his ass until he's awake and vice versa and then we will go to school late.)

And when all our classes ended at 11.40am, the rest of them waited for me under the classroom building and we had our usual 'birthday lunch'. And, for the first time without having me to beg, they took me to the arcade!!! =D

Evening time was a date with Stu. He was still a mafan guy who I just can't wait to get rid of. While on the date, Mia kept texting me: come to the boy's crib by 7pm if not you're dead. So that gave me an excuse to escape from him. I'm sorry baby I did this to you, but still, HAHAHAHAH!

I reached their crib, there were MacDonalds and KFC lying on the coffee table. Every one was there. And we started watching movies and telling jokes as we munched on the burgers and chips.

Nothing dramatic, nothing glamorous, just something intimate. And I love them all. I really love Mia because she really knows what kind of things to plan for liwen's birthday. It's the right companion, simple yet with a lil bit of craziness in it, HAHAHAHAHAH. :P
The others who we only go out to have fun with, they told me they wanted to throw me a party at BOX! That would be a birthday party for Rosa, not Liwen.
Love you much Mia, my lesbian. hahahahahah

Oh, I made a mistake. It's not just Delta. I remembered that it's something essential for us to say "I love you" or "saranghae" to each other in Wuhan everyday.

Mia knows how much I love her, Louise know how much I love her, Hugo knows how much I love him. Yeelin knows(I hope) that I really loved her..

And everytime I told my fagtards I love them, Ryan would go: love you too, now be a good girl, get lost and leave me alone. and Jimond would imitate the way I say "I love you" or "Saranghae" and then add on "you go to hell".

Things would be so much nicer now, if there wasn't any drama going on.. If only...

理工大学

多数之前在华师通过语言关的学生都搬到理工大学开始他们的专业。
还以为他们真的那么认真努力学习，连上 Facebook 和 Skype 的时间都没有。
原来理工的男生留学生宿舍正在进行装修中，所以他们必须暂时住在类似华师“北楼”的地方。。2个月。但是他们比较惨，连网络都没有。。。

为什么这样！！！以前是我，现在是 Stu。可怜。

甘你娘。

To love or to be loved.

"The reciprocity that we always wish for is actually a false reciprocity."

They say, if you ever have to choose between To Love and To Be Loved, To Be Loved would be a wiser decision.

I didn't know love can be spoon-fed, I didn't expect myself to be a slacker in a relationship too. Maybe I haven't seen you in a long time, maybe things will get back straight later. Who knows.

Sense of guilt, yes.
More importantly, it's my last year in Wuhan already, which means...

妈妈50岁了~

今天是妈咪的50岁生日，她感触良多，嘴里不断地念着： 50岁了，真的50岁了。。。

爸爸在苏州工作无法赶回来和我们一起庆祝妈咪的生日，所以只好在 Skype 和他 webcam，一起唱 “生日快乐” 给妈咪听。

唱完歌后，当大家忙着拍照和切蛋糕的当儿，我看见爸爸的表情好像有点别扭。。我知道爸爸想家了。这么大的年纪了，一个人在苏州公干应该很不习惯，有些孤独吧？

真想爸爸立刻回来新加坡，这样我们一家人就能团聚在一起了。

最近不知怎么的，总是很容易感伤。爸爸和妈咪都好伟大哦，真想赶快毕业，找份好工作，分担家里的费用，那爸爸和妈咪就可以好好享受生活了。

Oh my DELTA~

I started planning the annual gathering for Delta 3 weeks ago but due to too much changes and I am still PMS-ing, I thought that we should just cancel the gathering since the 'attendance was low'.


Nicholas, being the swayest among the ones to update me about his changes on the day before our gathering, felt guilty as he thought that he was the one who screwed up the gathering. And so, he sent a text to all Deltarians individually and took over the role of the coordinator.
Nicholas is such a sweetie pie, isn't he??? He called them one by one and make sure they pick up their calls. You know army boys, they like to hibernate at home and ignore every phone calls so he had to really call and call and call until they picked up. I even saw him writing on Kenneth's wall saying: Munfei, I will keep calling and calling and calling until you pick up my call!

And so, he magaged to get 7 of us together. Dinner at Orchard and then cruising around in Victor's and Nicholas cars. They stopped by a 7-11 and they boys went to get some drinks, so Huiting filled me in with the details.

Huiting:
You know Nicholas was really guilty and he really wanted to make today's gathering happen. The gathering he organized in 2008, only the both of us turned up and we went home right after we exchanged our gifts. He was cursing and he sweared that he was not going to plan for any gathering anymore.
And then on the pilot seat, I saw a piece of cardboard. The cardboard Nicholas used to write down our contacts down 4 years ago during CIBTC. So he had been trying to contact the Deltarians even when he was on the road.

Huiting: And then all of us quickly coordinate and organize this last minute gathering lor, see sotong so disappointed plus all of us want to meet up too.

SO SWEET RIGHT ALL OF THEM!!!

Yourui decided to choose booze over friendship, so he went to clarke quay while we head to Marina Barrage to chill. He gonna leave for Taiwan for army next Sat~


Nicholas! hahahahahahahaha.

Victor was the photographer thus no self shot of him. He's such a gentleman to send all of us who stay at the west side home. I reached home at 6am. He had to go for the Yellow Ribbon Run at 7am.

Usually I'll only reciprocate when a friend tells me how much she love me. I mean I still love my other friends, my CHS lovelies especially. But you know Deltarians are the only group of people who I would actually tell them how much I love them, I even say that in their faces and I really mean I do that everytime I get to see them. Because I really do. I'm afraid to say that they are the only group of friends who I love very much and I really treasure them. Every time, without fail, they know what I am thinking and what I would do. More than worms in my stomach.

Four years ago, I wrote my NPCC Area wrongly (I was from Area19 but I wrote down Area17. Because I saw something that started with "A" and assumed that it was "Age"..) and I was posted to Delta Squad instead of Charlie Squad. I think I was destined to be a member of the J'06 Delta family.

This group of people they really been through all sorts of shits with me and they are always SOOOOOOOOOO sweet towards me. This family really showers me with lots of love and care.
Last August when I left for Wuhan, they camped at the airport since 12am and expected me to be there by 6am but I was late. The whole time spent at the airport before I entered the departure gate was very chaotic. I ran around talking to everybody, except for my Deltarians. According to them, I didn't even turn towards their direction when I turned back to wave goodbye. :((

They went:
We wanted to let you know that we really care for you, so we showed our sincerity by reaching here the earliest. But you choose to collect angpaos from the adults and rather talk to the group of people who came the latest. You sang "Nobody" and did the dance and went into the departure gate. You didn't even turn to our direction when you waved goodbye.

I realized how much of a jerk I was to them and kept quiet. And as usual, they would just laugh it off and say: aiyah, nevermind one lar. she sotong already mah, cannot blame her. we still want you lar sotong, dont worry.

Despite being such an asshole, they did not hold it against me. They are always so forgiving towards me even though at times I could be really harsh at them.

They always put Deltarians as priority and that is something I have to learn from them. I'm sorry for always taking you guys for granted because I know that you all will really be there for me always. I promise from now onwards, you will receive better treatment and more love from sotong coz yall deserve it.
I love you guys :)

好久不见

突然听见妈妈在客厅大喊： 纽西兰地震 leh!

听完后，我第一个想到的人就是王玉。突然一阵紧张，担心起他来。
刚好在msn上看见他。虽然从来没在msn上和他聊过天，因为我们之前都是面对面聊天的。。但是还是给了他一段留言，要他好好注意安全和注意身体。但没想到他竟然立刻回复了。就这样，我们小聊了一下。告诉他这里发生了什么事，有什么变化。而他还是一样，只吸收别人的新闻，不分享他自己的事。但是，知道他过得很好就好了。

当时他突然人间蒸发，连义安的毕业典礼也没参加，直到典礼结束后班长才说收到了他的短信，说人在新西兰，无法赶回来参加毕业典礼。他不知道当时的我们有多失望，多难过，多愤怒。他也不知道有谁因为他而心碎了。

很久没见到他了。最后一次见到他是2009年的一个早晨。大家刚考完期末考准备大玩特玩才回新加坡，而王玉却在考试结束后的隔天就与我们告别，离开武汉。

那是一个冬天的早晨，天气很冷，我们起得很早，肚子也很饿，心里非常难过。我们几个都到王玉的房间集合。从他的房间到宿舍大厅，然后往西门走去，经过了很多我们曾经一起走过的路，最后终于托着沉重的行李和心情走出了华师西门。

等待出租车的心情是很矛盾的。王玉看着手表，时间已经快来不及了。但对我们来说，只要他还等不到车子就代表能多看他几眼。。尽管如此，我们还是很努力地睁开惺忪的双眼，留意看有没有空着的车子经过。

武汉早上的交通还是那么混乱，我们眼见王玉就快迟到了却又舍不得他走，心里也很混乱，一切就这样，在一阵阵的混乱中度过。马路上车子的喇叭响个不停，有人终于看见有空车出现跑到马路中央拦住车子，王玉手忙脚乱地把行李都放进车里，回过身多看那群特地冒着风寒来送他的朋友们，然后给了大家一个拥抱后，跳上车子。他脸上还是挂着笑容，但并不是他那古灵精怪带有点稚气的招牌笑容，而是那种有点酸酸的笑容，笑得有点儿勉强。车子走远了，仍然能看见王玉的手从车窗伸出来拼命地挥着。。

亲爱的朋友，我很想你，我们都很想念你啊~
想念你跟我抢 Alexey
想念你的浮浅
想念你跟我们一起八卦
想念你那副整天嬉皮笑脸的模样
想念你的全部。

The Little Prince.

It's been a long time since I last read a book, for leisure. Been spending the whole night reading this classic novel by Saint-Exupéry, a french writer and aviator, and I'm sure everyone has heard of his

The Little Prince.

I took my own sweet time to read, because this is really a great book. I have not finished reading the whole book yet, but as of the first nine chapters that I managed to cover, I think that the author succeeded in exposing the common problems that lie within every single adult, which are their ignorance and their narrow-minded perspective.

The first thing in the book that hit me the most is..

In chapter 4 of the book, a Turkish Astronomer discovered Asteroid B-612 and decided to present it to the International Astronomical Congress. None of the people who were present believed him, because he was dressed in his Turkish Traditional Costume at that point of time. Few years later, he dressed himself in the European Traditional Costume and did the same presentation again. This time round, he was overwhelmed by all the positive responses from the people who were present.

This got me thinking even harder while reading the book. I'm guilty and ashamed but I would not deny that I do see my own shadow in the book.

What an awesome way to make me do some soul-searching. This book can be a simple book for children, and adults should definitely read it too. Because from what I know, I only see the adults, be it parents and teachers or whoever, trying to teach the younger generations: to be appreciative and blahblah.

When..

Adults cannot appreciate the things that children do even though they were once children..

今天是教师节

今天是教师节，我祝愿天下所有的老师：教师节快乐~

从来都不是义安中文系最出色的学生，所以一直觉得辜负了老师细心的教导，也觉得永远轮不到我这种成绩垫底的学生和老师打交道。

南老师是我学生生涯中遇见的最最最最最最最最棒，最体贴，最亲切，最随和的老师。
今天是教师节，终于鼓起勇气，决定在南老师的“脸书”上留下了一直想要告诉他，却又不好意思说出口的话。我心底的话。

南老师，真的很好。他真的给了我们很多。很多作业，很多欢笑，很多回忆，很多机会，很多很多。。
只怪我的表达能力有限，无法把心中的感激表达出来。简单地说，世上只有南老师最棒！

南老师，教师节快乐！

I thought I think a thought.

I must say: Home is still the best and there is no place like home.

Being away from home for almost a year and now that I'm actually back home for my Summer Vacation, I have to admit that I'm feeling very reluctant to leave again.

I know I'm being contradicting. I wanted freedom, I wanted to be independent, I wanted to gain experience, I wanted to know about myself and to search for who I really am. And so, I got what I wanted, scholarship for my BA Degree in Wuhan.

For my whole 21 years on Earth, I've never been so independent before. Applied for Overseas University despite Mom's initial disapproval. Bumping around like a headless bee just to get all those paper works done before I leave the country. It was really tiring and hard for me to work and at the same time, having to travel the whole of Singapore to get all the document done. But I always knew that no matter how hard my day was and despite all the difficulties I faced during the day, at least at the end of the day, I would be able to be in my humble crib enjoying the love and care showered by my family and friends.

Things could get really tough in Wuhan. Afterall, I'm all alone, I don't even have a Countrymate with me to see me through everything. Life over there wasn't as enjoyable as what I've been through with my fellow Wuhanners back in 2008. Instead, I had to put up with the school's fucked-up system. They gave me the wrong course, they didn't provide me with accomodation, they charged me for every tiny damage at a high price and I had no one to stand up for me.

I did meet some really nice people there. They really helped me alot by being there for me to whine about how tough it is to survive in that shithole. Perhaps I was the only one among them without any Countrymate, or maybe because being breed in Singapore and I did not believe in violence could resolve anything, all my friends there took great care of me like their own sister.

Living in the International Students Dormitory also means that I had to immerse into all the different cultures, which I did. Most of us did. And of course, there would be some jackasses, A*r*c*ns especially, who would come banging on girls doors whenever they are drunk. Some son of a bitch could even ask the guard to open up a girl's room for them, claiming that it was their own room. It was really hard and frightening to live in such a place like this, alone. It was not like things in 2008, when I could just wake Xiaowei up when I'm having insomnia, there's no other safest place other than Lynnette's and HongYee's to crash in whenever I'm drunk, and needless to say, there's no Huiting the mighty class rep for me to inquire everything about school that I wasn't clear about.

There's nothing much for us to do for entertainment other than casual drinking and weekends clubbing. Needless to say, I only drink with people whom I really put my trust on, and would only hit the club when there's guys whom I know I can trust. It's sad, but I have to say that that's the only way for me to get rid of the feeling of homesick and loneliness. That is the most effective way to have the companion of everybody without having to tell them that: hey, I'm a faggot, I'm a chicken. I get all homesick and depressed whenever I'm alone.

School wise, it's kind of annoying. Because they assume too much. They assumed that I can't understand Chinese because Singapore's official language is English. The dorms manager made me pay for a piece of 1m x 1m glass at freaking 800rmb and my classmate always remind me to go for my Chinese Calligraphy class so that she could use my paintbrush and papers in class, they did all these because they assumed that it's alright to let me pay because a Singaporean can't be too poor.

The teachers there can't even decide on whether to give us an essay to write or to give us an examination for our End of Year grades. They gave us last minute decision at the most one week in advanced. Some teachers are better, first class of the semester, they would tell us: hey, we don't have to sit for any exams, just write me an essay of 3000 words about blahblahblah. Having been through the CHS days, I know how sucky it was to slog for essays 3 days prior the deadline. I went to the school library to do research and started working on the essays, I put my heart and soul in it, and when the End of Year come, the teacher told us: I've decided not to let you guys write an essay because I'm lazy to mark. Let's have exam instead. And so, all the effort I've put in for the essays went down into the drain.

And the thing that got me fucking pissed off was, when one of the teachers say my essay, she went: Zhang Liwen, did you really write the whole essay by yourself?

I tried all sorts of way to feel better. I laughed it off, I broke down, I slept it off, I drank it off. But things just kept repeating and they really suck at handling International Students.

Nevertheless, all those greetings from sunny Singapore helped alot. Each time I received a Skype call from Mom, I could only speak to her for 5minutes and pretended to be busy and hung up. Because everytime I hear her voice and see her face through the webcam made me miss home so much. All the letters and greeting cards that were sent to me meant so much too, I don't know how you guys managed to find out and remember my address, but I really appreciate it so much that sometimes I actually slept with the letters and cards. And the frequent long distance phone calls from Minnie Onni and Doraemon Onni helped me to pull it through too, I'm so glad that they never forget about me and would call and check on me to ensure that I'm doing fine. The ZOO people, girlfriends whom I've known for the longest time, although I received no phone calls, no emails, no letters from you all, I think you girls were the ones who made me look forward to coming home even more.

Starting this September, it will be my last year in Wuhan HuaShi, and I'll be graduating in June 2011. I just want time to pass faster and let me graduate smoothly so that I can come back and earn big bucks!

Ok, this is a long post I know. I just want to grumble can or not.